Before I tell you how coloring a single page had changed my life, you should probably know a few things about me.
I am a woman, a mother, an author, a wife, and a Christian. And like many of you, I struggle with peer pressure and the fear of “getting it wrong.” Like many, I gain weight without reason, unless we’re counting Peanut M&Ms as a reason for gaining weight, which I’m not. 😉
On this particular day, I was sorting through the mountain-high pile of revisions that I need to work through on my latest manuscript when I was forced to take a break and run two of my boys to the gym for a basketball camp. I pulled on some pants that were a bit too snug and spied a picture of myself on Facebook that reminded me of how much weight I’ve gained in the last year. Needless to say, I left the house feeling a bit low about it all.
And it was in the midst of all of this that I pulled out my coloring pencils and found healing.
A dear friend of mine bought me a travel sized coloring book with scripture in it. I was in need of a new page to color but nothing was capturing my attention. So I closed the book and opened to a random page. I don’t like playing goofy games like this with my Bible but this is a coloring book so goofy games are allowed here. 😉
I opened up to the page with the verse, “I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.” Immediately this connected with my weary heart. I was reminded of the disheartening conversation I had with myself about my weight and knew I had to let it go. So with joy, I snatched up a couple pink pencils because this picture NEEDED pink! But something odd happened.
I panicked. What if these colors didn’t look right on the finished page? Maybe I shouldn’t use so much pink? What other colors would work well with these shades of pink? How am I going to pull all of this together and still end up with a beautiful work of art?
I think I need a second opinion.
I looked down at the verse under my hand again. “I praise you for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.”
And suddenly there was freedom. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Pink, and lots of it, is part of who I am. I love coloring pages with one dominant color. It’s a style that’s simplistic and beautiful in my eyes. So if I like it, is it wrong?
I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
My natural instinct to color the page 50% pink isn’t wrong. It’s wonderful.
My desire to write an epilogue even though the world is growing increasingly hostile toward them isn’t wrong. It’s wonderful.
This page became a lesson on learning to accept and trust myself and my desires. I’m free to do what feels right and trust my instincts here. I don’t have to fear that I’ll get it wrong. It’s mine. I can only get it right.
Art is funny that way. In areas of creativity, you’re free to go with your gut.
Disclaimer: Accepting who you and are and how you were created is NOT a license for sin. Sin is never to be accepted or tolerated within yourself. This is strictly a lesson on following your creative side, and NOT about following your heart into sin.